The Departure

half time. it's United 2 Wes Brom 0. United seems on the course of easy victory. it has been a game that dominated by the Red Devils from start to half time.

but just before the 2nd half begins, a text from my sister took the half out of me.....

Abby: I cant believe grandpa was gone...

I was like....speechless..shocked...yet I still can't believe it, so I replied....

Me: Which grandpa???!!!

Abby: Aki Chachang.....

The moment I got the text, I almost passed out....felt the world came crushing down on me....

I was speechless for the entire match. I wanted to call mum, but I didn't have the courage.

after i regained my composure, i called mum. She told me she was too busy calling other relatives informing the bad news, and thats why she didn't informed me in the first place........ :'(

Mum told me that I do not have to go back since she knew next week is a busy one for me.

But deep in my heart, I really wanted too. I feel guilt, up until now...if not because of these overdue assignments, I might have been able to see him for the last time... :'(

He always concerned about my study. He would asked how many semesters left, time and time again, as if he can't wait to see me grad. Those times when we smoke cigar together will always remain as the best moment we had together.

When I was a toddler, I was left with grandma and grandpa since my parent were still working separately. I cried a lot especially at night because I get to missed my parent, and grandpa would scold me and and asked me to stop crying immediately. Yes..grandpa was bit fierce..because I'm a bit naughty little kid..and no one could sheltered me better than grandma....

So, in due to respect the dismissal of grandpa, I would declare mourning period starting from yesterday until Friday. Any joyful moments will be cheered at minimal one.

Even though i feel deeply regret for not coming back, but if grandpa is around, he would have want me to stay and focus on my study....

Rest in peace Aki..I know you are going to somewhere, a better place..may God shines His lights on your soul..

I love you..I miss you...and you are always in my prayer....

Thanks to all of my friends and family who have offered condolences and encouragement towards us during this un-cheerful time.

Especially to Al..thank for being there for me..I know you are such a good friend that I can count on..